The last few days I have spent at some what of a loss. Not sure what to do next etc. I do think that this is just part of the human condition (beware people who do know what to do next.. high probability they aren’t as carbon based as the rest of us..lol) that’s not very helpful.
So, today I spent lunch (a rather late lunch due to an endemic lack of foresight and leaving my food in my room which is locked 10am-2pm) sitting in a garden in patchy sun listening to little birds twittering (I have come to the conclusion the Kookaburra is THE coolest bird.. its years since I saw one) and sharing attention between pate and crispy bread and watching little kiddies attempt to play rugby.
Personally I think they should stick to soccer.. these little kids are ace at it. I think I spent my childhood on the beach, attempting to break into my friends neighbours (we never succeded), doing strange things to pine cones and making various weapons. Ah.. the days before water restrictions when you could run around like a madman with a water pistol..
Actually it may not be pate.. its ‘Mousse de FOIE’. In most cases I would be worried about not knowing what im eating. But as I cant think of many things worse than mooshed up liver, its all good. Why I can handle the thought of mushed liver and not a chickens head in my soup (see Portugal blogs) or sushi and not whole cooked fish.. I don’t know.. it’s a mystery.
ANYWAY (having a little trouble with focus today… how rare ..lol)
But as I sat there my thoughts went in their normal mediocre annoying loops. Basically circulating around ‘by god this costs a lot of money’ – im actually living of half the amount it cost in Peru.. im in France for gods sake.. living costs are half of a developing country?! ‘am I spending my money properly?’-some might say accommodation and food is a good use of this resource and ‘am I spending my time well?’
I am sitting in a park in France eating Pate on biscuits with no one demanding anything of me. There are a million people who would kill for this situation.
Sometimes my pointless questioning annoys me.
The problem is that no matter how logical the answers are they just don’t seem to satisfy the questions. (its rather like wondering why we call a tree a tree and not a bush.. or Floogle horn.. you are NEVER going to find a satisfactory answer)
Hence the annoying repetition..
Why this is.. im not sure.. but I have a few theories (as if I could have a dilemma I haven’t analysed)
a) This is just an annoying blip in my personality. Theoretically there has to be one somewhere.. this could be it.
b) This is just a remanent from my education system where it is not enough to simply satisfy myself but where I have to get a grade from someone somewhere.
c) This is my subconscious trying to stop me worring bout that pate not having been refrigerated for 2 days.
Well.. c) isn’t working. And since im perfect obviously its cant be a) therefore it must be b) using the famous process of elimination. Damn school.
For some reason its societally acceptable to spend a whole day inside studying to be a politician, but spending it outside eating pate (off though it may have been.. its hard to tell with pate.. it always looks and smells a bit weird.. which does of course raise the question of why I eat it) just isnt.
The world is mad.
Perhaps I will just have to force myself to enjoy the sun, and the little birdies and just contributing to the prosperity of France by contributing minorly to the economy.
Next think you know ill be eating Tiramisu with a long handled spoon.
Its possible I may actually learn to enjoy leisure time, instead of feeling guilty about it.
Ok.. well its improbable due to genetics.. but the impossible can happen.
Also my current reading material is the Financial Times (admittedly I get about half of it.. but I get the gist.. ) and a book called ‘Critical Mass’ –How one thing leads to another., about the physics of society (yep, we all just act like little gas molecules in a balloon.. damn.. guess I don’t need to feel guilty after all).
Good news is I discovered that the coalition and opposition are posting videos on youtube. They even infiltrated Facebook to remind young people to register to vote. Its nice to know that the government is keen on everyone voting even though they wont all vote for them. Go democracy!
In other news:
- I am running low on hot chocolate sachets.. its not good
- I am contemplating getting ‘I don’t speak french’ tattooed on my forehead, that or a barcode (parents go white.. lol)
- I threw away my connies.. they were too heavy to travel with *sniff*
- There is a new type of creature.. called a desk dog.. they are a bit smaller than my foot and they sit on your desk apparently bonelessly (think the cat in Charlie Brown) and stare balefully at any customers. Just shows how much we have screwed with evoloution.
- There are 6 types of pear available in the supermarket down the road.. small, small and dark green, long and skinny, normal, long and skinny, and weird
- The milo I have been hording carefully is apparently in a container that used to have tea in it. This has left my very rare milo with a tea esque taste.. its weird to say the least.
- I am proud of todays shopping.. a whole 3 euros went on food today.. and everything was chosen for nutritional content.. and ability to buy in small amounts.. do you know how many things come in incredibly large amounts.. ? sigh..
And id say that’s the world according to me today.
Now I have to go find a place to sleep tomorrow (look.. planning a whole 24hrs ahead! wowzer)
Ciao
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